hey,
i'm in jail. i know that's a lot. i'm still kind of confused about it honestly.
it happened when i was getting food for my dog. you know how he likes the soft stuff near the deep part of the big room, where it's warm and kind of glowy? he won't eat anything else anymore, he's picky like that. i wasn't even going far. i had my little bucket and everything.
but there were men with lights and they were really loud and they had these suits on, the big puffy ones, and they started yelling at me and i didn't understand most of it but one of them kept saying radioactive over and over like i was doing something terrible. i tried to explain about my dog but i don't think they heard me. or maybe they heard me and didn't care.
they took me here and asked me a lot of questions and i answered them all honestly i think but they kept making these faces at each other and writing things down and it made my stomach hurt.
the worst part is they went into my room. they went into my actual room and they took everything. all my rocks. the pink one i found in the warm hall that was always warm even in winter. the little cluster of crystals from the flooded corridor that made colours on the ceiling when i held a torch near them. the heavy dark one that felt like holding a small sleeping animal. all of it. gone. they put it all in bags and sealed them up and one of the men said something about hazardous material and i started crying
i've had those rocks for years. they were mine. i found them. i didn't steal them from anyone
i keep thinking about my dog alone down there. i hope he found something to eat. i left some crumbled bits near the east pipe, so maybe.
i don't think i did anything wrong but everyone here seems very sure that i did and i'm not smart enough to argue about it so i just say okay and try not to cry in front of them.
i called jessy though. that was the one good thing. she picked up and she said don't worry, she's going to figure it out, her and the others are going to come and get me. i've been holding onto that. every time the walls feel too close i just think about jessy saying don't worry and it helps a little bit.
i miss my room. i miss the way it glowed a little at night. i miss my dog's face.
anyway. i don't know when you'll get this or if you will.
— emma
ps. my tummy has been hurting these past few days. and i think it looks a little bigger than before? it's probably nothing. it's probably just the food here, it's really different from home food. but i've been thinking about it a lot at night when i can't sleep and.
i really hope i'm not pregnant.